Wednesday, 17 February 2016

वोह रात (Woh Raat)



 तुम्हें लिखते लिखते न जाने कितने कॉफ़ी के कप खाली किये थे उस रात मैंने। तुम्हारे जाने के बाद की हर रात की कहानी लिख डाली थी। उन पन्नों पर तुम्हें लिख तो दिया था मगर तुम्हें खुद से अलग न कर सकी थी। उलट पलट के उन पन्नों को बार बार देखा। कईं देर तक देखती रही। फ़िर, एक चिंगारी सुलगाई और तुम्हे फूँक डाला। बरसों बीत गयी है उस रात को मगर आज भी, मेज़ पर रखे उस गुलदान में पड़ी उन पन्नों की राख में तुम्हें ज़िंदा रखा हुआ है। 




Tumhe likhte likhte na jaane kitne coffee ke cup khaali kiye the uss raat maine. Tumhare jaane ke baad ki har raat ki kahaani likh daali thi. Unn panno par tumhe likh to diya tha magar khud se alag na kar saki thi. Ulat palat ke unn panno ko baar baar dekha. Kayi'n daer tal dekhti rahi. Phir, ek chingaari sulgaayi aur tumhe phoonk daala. Barso'n beet gayi hai uss raat ko magar aaj bhi, mez par rakhe uss guldaan mein padhi unn panno ki raakh mein tumhe zinda rakha hua hai.

Sunday, 29 November 2015

Khaamoshi

Ek lambe arsey baad miley the dono
Saath khaamoshi le kar aaye the
Bahut kuch kehna tha
Bahut kuch sun na tha
Lekin..
Khaamoshi bolti rahi

Un khaamosh lamho'n mein
Bahut kuch kaha dono ne
Bahut kuch suna bhi
Lekin..
Labh unke hiley nahi'n

Sehmi nazar se ek dusre ko taraasha
Woh baalo'n mein ugti hui chaandni
Woh maathe pe waqt ki daraarei'n
Aaj bhi woh chehra utna hi haseen tha

Dheemi si muskaan ke saath
Sharm se usne jhuka li aakhei'n
Maano jaise woh keh raha tha
'Tum aaj bhi utni hi haseen ho'

Haule se guzarta hua waqt
Yakh-basta ho gaya
Beeti sadi ki yaadei'n
Kaano mein gunguna gaya

Baithe rahe woh khaamosh
Aur guftgu chalti rahi
Bahut kuch kaha dono ne
Bahut kuch suna bhi

Ek arse ke giley shikwe the
Khaamoshi se hi sulajhne the
Suljhe lekin..
Waqt ulajhta chala gaya

Wednesday, 20 May 2015

Indifferent Love

He watched an ice cube melt over her navel. She quivered, watching him, as water trickled down. He moved closer and made circles around with his tongue making her let out a soft moan.

He moved over her straddling himself on her thighs. He held onto her hands as he bent down over her navel. The ice cube kept melting. Water kept trickling down her curves making her tickle with passion. He let out a warm breath over the navel and drank the melted water from the goblet of her navel. He poured a drop of red wine into her. Savoring both, her navel and wine, he moved his hands over her bosom.

He cupped her bosom while savoring wine from her navel. She tried to curl her legs but he stretched straight on her holding her legs with his'. She let out a pleasurable moan. He kept licking at her navel. She began to plead, she was being tortured albeit pleasurably. He made her helpless with holding her hands and legs.

He began moving upward leaving a trail of intoxicated kisses from her navel to the bosom. He stopped, looked up into her eyes, gave a notorious smile and bit on her left areola. She screamed, in pain and desire. He crushed her nipple between his teeth, mercilessly. She cried a moan until he began caressing it with his lips, softly.

He moved his hand over her right bosom while playing with his tongue over the left one. Squeezing and stroking one, sucking and licking the other one. She trembled under him. She moved her free arm on his back sliding downwards to his buttocks. She spanked him taking him by surprise. He stiffened and froze when she spanked him, harder, the second time. He let out an astonished moan. A moan that told how much he loved the surprise.
She winked at him. He smiled back as he bent down and locked lips. He kissed her slow. Very slow. She moved her hands over his back, gently, making circles with her tender fingers. She moved them down on his buttocks and pressed him towards herself. He smiled on her lips knowing precisely what she meant. It was time to go down. Her libidinous demons were waiting to be exorcised.

He broke the kiss and began sliding down. On the way he kissed her on chin, moved further down to her neck where he left a trail of wet kisses. Onto her bosom where he said a wet hello to both. A kiss on her cleavage, a run for the tongue between that. He moved down to her belly. His hands resting on her love handles. His lips kissing every inch of her skin. He stopped at the navel and played with it for a while before sucking it. He moved to her lower abdomen, just above her paradise. He drew a line across the area with his tongue kissing slowly all around. At last, he came to her paradise, looked up at her, gave a smile and let out a warm breath over it.

A loud ring distracted him. He turned around and saw the deafeningly ringing alarm clock by the bedside. He shifted in his bed only to realize he was dreaming, dreaming about the lost intimacy between them. She sat across the bed tying her hair into a bun. Her curvy silhouette against the morning sun made him crave for her. He stayed still in his side of the bed. She stood up, without turning back to him, and disappeared in the bathroom. He laid in bed with his dreamy eyes on the ceiling reminiscing the mornings when she used to wake him up with kisses. He let out a loud sigh and turned his back to the bathroom.
The breakfast table felt more like an obligation than family time. Their home was devoid of laughter. Neither of them smiled. They had grown ignorant of each other's presence in their lives, at least they pretended to do so when left within the confines of their home.
He never felt as guilty as he did today morning for that fateful night. The memory of that night was still fresh as a dew in his life. That was the night their relationship took an unpleasant turn.

1 year ago

Ravish and Namita invited envious gaze from everybody around them. They were a couple who redefined marriage with love. Their love for each other grew deeper with every passing day until that fateful night at a colleague's house party to celebrate Ravish's phenomenal success in the company over a very short span of time. Rumours about Ravish's sexual favors to their boss were rife but Namita had downplayed them all this while until that cold December night.

That cold December night

The celebrations were loud with music & dance and alcohol & food. The extravagant show of finesse in every department could barely  miss an eye. Everybody was high in and on spirits dancing all night. Post 2 am, Namita felt exhaustingly tipsy and went upstairs, away from the hullabaloo, in search of a place to relax. She turned to the first room to the left and collapsed on the bed.

The door banged open, at around 3 am, waking Namita from her drunk nap. She could barely manage to open her eyes. Her head was heavy and tizzy. Her vision blurred with sleep. But, her pupils dilated and vision cleared when she saw Ravish in a passionate lip lock with his boss, Mr. Das.

She froze in bed with eyes wide open in astonishment. Her heart stopped beating. She couldn't fathom what she was witnessing. She knew she was neither dreaming nor hallucinating. It was Ravish and Mr. Das, in the act, caught unawares. Breathless, she witnessed the homosexual act of his husband with his boss from under the comforter in that dimly lit bedroom.

Mr. Das's fingers were caressing Ravish's neck and his hands were traveling down into the backside of Mr. Das's pants whilst their tongues were rummaging each other's mouth. Ravish pushed Mr. Das towards him. Mr. Das let out a moaning laugh. Ravish undid Mr. Das's fly and went down on him. Namita didn't want to believe what she was seeing but she didn't have a choice. She couldn't react. She laid numb in that bed witnessing it all.

Ravish cupped Mr. Das's cullion and kissed at his tip. Slowly, he moved Mr. Das into his mouth whilst Mr. Das enjoyed the pleasure with closed eyes, loud moans and pulling onto Ravish's hair. A few minutes later, Ravish stood up and undid his fly. His pants dropped down pooling around his feet. He then turned around and bent over for his boss. Mr. Das spanked him as he moaned aloud. Mr. Das moved a finger between his butt crack before plunging into him. Namita closed her eyes and wept uncontrollably before mustering courage to stand up and confront Ravish.

This day


Ravish wanted to apologize to her for everything he did but couldn't dare speak a word. She sipped coffee while glancing through her newspaper. She stood up and walked towards the main door. She turned back towards him as she opened the door. He waited with bated breath for her to speak something. She did. She said, 'Today's the last day,' and moved out closing the door behind her.  

Tuesday, 31 March 2015

यादों का बक्सा

वो बेसमेंट में रखा बक्सा
जिस में तुमको कैद कर रखा था
आज उसे निकाला है

तुम्हारी वो आधी सुलगी सिगरेट
होठों से लगा कर इक कश भरती हूँ
बीते दिनों का धुआँ छा जाता है

तुम्हारी वो अधूरी सी इक नज़्म
उलट पलट कर बार बार पढ़ती हूँ
वस्ल की वो शब का ख़्याल आ जाता है

तुम्हारी वो टूटी घड़ी का इक सटरेप
आँखें आज भी नम हो जाती हैं
टकरार की वो आख़िरी रात याद आ जाती है

ख़ामोशी से फिर उस बक्से को
वापिस वहीं बेसमेंट में रख देती हूँ
तुम्हारी यादों को दफ़न कर देती हूँ



Woh basement mein rakha baksa
Jiss mein tumko qaid kar rakha tha
Aaj usse nikaala hai

Tumhari woh aadhi sulgi cigarette
Hotho'n se laga kar ik kash bharti hoon
Beete dino ka dhuaa'n chhaa jaata hai

Tumhari woh adhuri si ik nazm
Ulat palat kar baar baar padhti hoon
Vasl ki woh shab ka khayaal aa jaata hai

Tumhari woh tooti ghadi ka ik strap
Aankhei'n aaj bhi nam ho jaati hain
Takraar ki woh aakhiri raat yaad aa jaati hai

Khamoshi se phir uss bakse ko
Waapis wahi'n basement mein rakh deti hoon
Tumhari yaado'n ko dafan kar deti hoon

#Nazneen

Friday, 15 August 2014

Azaadi

Viraasat mein mili hai azaadi inhei'n,
Azaadi ki qeemat yeh kya jaane.

Purwajo'n ne khoon diya,
Isliye aaj azaad hain hum;
Uss khoon ki qeemat ye kya jaane.

Azaad desh mila raaj karne ke liye,
Rajniti ke khatir iske tukdey kar daley.

Ithe khudgarz hue hai aaj log yaha'n,
Apni jebei'n bharne ke liye kahi'n,
Iss desh ki azaadi ko
Jhooth ke bazaar mein kahi'n sasta na bech dale'n.

Tuesday, 6 May 2014

Train Journey from My Wildest Imagination

Travelling was her first love and photography second, the reason for Kaira Sinha to opt travel-photography as her mainstream career option. She didn’t like the idea of traveling by flights. Meeting strangers and getting to know them was her hobby. Hence she preferred traveling by train despite the long hours. She had a long list of ‘Train Friends’, the people whom she befriended on a train journey.

This time around she was traveling to the pink city- Jaipur. Unlike her other train journeys, she wasn’t happy about this one the moment she boarded the train. It was over crowded due to the holiday season and with many passengers traveling on RAC and Waiting List reservation tickets. Something that’s unavoidable about Indian Railways!

Kaira was allotted the side upper berth which she was happy about until she reached her berth and found a Gujarati auntie sitting on the lower berth with whom she had a scuffle later while arranging her medium sized backpack. The whole of the luggage area beneath the berth was occupied by auntie’s luggage and to add to Kiara’s irritation, half of the lower berth was also taken! After a few harsh words Kiara adjusted her backpack below the lower berth. She caught a guy staring right into her cleavage that was visible from her unbuttoned crimson coloured chiffon top. She glared into his eyes and buttoned up her top.

The second good thing about travelling by train was that she found plenty of time to read and since she was already irritated, she preferred spending time with a book. The guy from the next compartment kept staring at her on all the wrong places. She caught him looking at her breasts. He tried to look away. He was lean, bespectacled with beard and moustache. His hair was thick and black that fell flawlessly onto his shoulders. She tried to look away from him when she saw him caressing his crotch while staring at her breasts. She tried to ignore and got herself busy with her book. Suddenly she felt her nipples tighten and she cursed herself for her desires being aroused. She tried to ignore the needs of her body and the guy for rest of the day.

The clock ticked 10 ‘o’ clock when she planned to retire for the day. She arranged her bedding and climbed up to her berth. She noticed the guy staring at her ass as his hand carelessly caressed his crotch. Her muscles south to her body clenched. She felt her nipples tightening again. She hesitated and rushed to lie down before her desires could unveil shamelessly in front of him. The drawn curtains made her feel safer and helped in keeping her sane.

She busied herself with the book again. He kept peeping at her berth in a hope to find a hint. Her reading light kept him waiting but in vain. After a while she closed the book and turned off the reading light. The day flashed in front of her as she closed her eyes. All of a sudden she saw that guy’s face and her eyes opened, startled she looked around to make sure he wasn’t there. She heaved a sigh of relief on knowing it was just an illusion. To make sure, she raised the curtains and peeped to find nobody around. She went off to sleep.
He caught her peeping from below the curtains. He took it as a cue. The idea made him uncomfortable in his underpants. He planned and waited.

A little while later, everything around felt silent. People went off to sleep. The darkness took over.
Kiara felt a hand slid under her blanket from below the curtains scaring the shit out of her until it reached for her right breast and caressed it. She liked the caress on her breast and thought to play along. She lay still for a few minutes then turned to face towards the curtains to give room to the hand. The hand, alarmed, moved out when she caught it and placed it on her bosom. This time it was her bare bosom. The hand played around more fearlessly this time around. A few seconds later another hand appeared. The hands caressed her breasts gently. She wanted more. Her desires were unfurled.

“Suck them.” She ordered. The hands froze. Her heart thumped at her own audacity. Hands lay frozen on her bosom for a minute then the curtains rose and a face appeared. It was that guy from the next compartment but without his spectacles. He smiled at her. She moved forward and offered her breasts. “Suck,” she said again. He grabbed her right breast with his teeth. He licked them like a child licks sugar candy. He rolled his tongue over her nipple. She moved his hand over her other breast. He grabbed the nipple between his index finger and thumb and squeezed it gently while his tongue pleasantly tormented her other nipple.

She was oozing between her legs. She started caressing her vagina. She couldn’t take it anymore. Holding back looked like a herculean task now. “Climb up” she uttered even before she realized. His eyes popped. He gulped a lump down his throat. “Climb up” she reassured.

The next moment he was on top of her. Their bodies touching, tongues fighting and hands entangled. His crotch rubbed over her vagina. He was hard as steel. She oozed at his touch and lowered her pants and undid his fly. He loved the way she commanded him to proceed further. He moved down on her and impatiently filled her up in an instant with a jerk. She opened her mouth to let out a moan but he locked lips with hers for their good. She opened her eyes wide and let out a moan into his mouth.


He thrust until they panted. “What a difficult one you are!” He whispered. She blushed and pinned her nails into his back moving down to his ass. She spanked and said, “Make me tremble. Will you?” He looked at her with astonishment. “Please” she added. His thrusts gained momentum until she moaned mutely. He fell down upon her after filling her up with his cum, “This is the train journey from my wildest imagination” he said as both of them chuckled. 

Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Aakhri Mulakaat..

Baad muddat usne mulakaat ka zikr kiya,
Uss roz jab mein vasl ki har aas chhodh chuki thi.

Laraztey hue hotho’n se ik khamosh si haami bhari maine,
Be-qaraar ho ik tareekh tay ki hum dono ne.

Ajeeb kashmakash thi, zehan mein kayi sawaal the;
Itne roz baad mera naam uske labho’n pe kyun aaya?

Har lamha yeh sawaal be-jawaab laut jaata tha-
Usko aaj mera khayaal kyun aaya?

Who aakhri mulakaat ka adhura sa lamha,
Ab bhi sannato’n mein shor karta hai.

Raat ke andhero’n mein,
Uske chehre ka noor chamakta hai.

Barso’n se dabbi hui ik khalish thi seene mein,
Uski aakhri mulaakat ki arz ne sabz kar di.

Kaampte hue haatho’n se maine,
Ek khat mein usse inkaar karne ki jurrat kar di.